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Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Premonitory Visions/Dreams


When I was a little girl I used to have "deja vu" all of the time. It was nothing important...just little stuff. The ones I remember were I was in my parents kitchen, running in circles and those circles were getting smaller and smaller until I collapsed in a heap in the middle of the room. I can still see the cabinet doors rushing by and the dizzy feeling I had. Another one was where I was in the car with my brother driving and we were at a stoplight. The car on the left of us turned right. I can still feel the air on my face and hands as I looked out the window.

So nothing in these "prophetic" dreams were of all that great of an importance. But they stood out to me as something special. I loved it when it happened. It was exciting! How did it work, why did it happen? Why did I only see minute things and not bigger things? And why didn't I remember the dream when I actually had it and only remembered it when it happened again? Once I did have a dream that I not only remembered but also felt it was a big deal. And to top it off, it came true. Not all of the parts of the dream came true, just one important piece of it. Ever since I had that dream, I knew what my older brother would look like when he was an adult.

The Dream: I usually dream in color but this one was in black and white. Well, everything was except the pink chair I kept in my bedroom. That retained it's color but in the dream it was a old fashioned loveseat. My mother was an older lady, with white hair and very thin. If you know my mother, she's built like Dolly Parton so there is no way that she could look like the woman in my dream. LOL She and my brother were arguing over which college he should attend. I was still a little girl even though they had aged. Even though I didn't see my mother correctly (and in my dream she was way older than she really was when my brother actually went to college), the important part of this dream is that I pictured my brother EXACTLY how he looks as an adult.

Interpretation:
Pink--The color in dreams can imply immaturity or weakness. Typically hot pink in a dream indicates sexuality. But I was a little girl so I tend to rule this possibility out. I did feel helpless that I couldn't stop their arguing.
Loveseat--To see or sit on a loveseat in your dream indicates your need for love. Perhaps I was feeling vulnerable and unloved at the time. Who knows, it was a long time ago and I'm no longer aware of the circumstances surrounding the dream.
Mother--To see your mother in your dream represents the nurturing aspect of your own character. Mothers offer shelter, comfort, life, guidance and protection. Again, maybe I was feeling vulnerable at this stage of my life
Brother--To see your brother in your dream symbolizes some aspect of your relationship with him. I was very close to my brother when I was that age and I remember thinking: "Let him go where he wants!"

But again, the important part of the dream, and the part that stuck with me is that I was able to accurately foresee what my brother would look as an adult. Granted, his looks haven't changed all that much like mine have. My face seems to morph every five years without me doing anything to encourage it. However, people do change a lot from the age of say 6/7 to 25. At the time of my dream, he was a little boy. 

Now, I seem to be having premonitions but only in my waking life. Or maybe they are just wishful ideas, I don't know. I've never had a "vision" in my waking life. I do know that over the years I have become more spiritual and I have always had a gift for being intuitive. At times in my life, when I've "hooked" myself up to someone, plugged into them, I have been able to know things that I had no possible way of knowing. I've known when a grandmother died, I've known when they've had a new baby in the family, etc. So now I can only hope that my visions of myself are really premonitions. Because if they are, my future is so bright I'm gonna have to purchase some shades. ;)


Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Gratitude

Today I'd like to make a list of 10 things that I'm thankful for. Gratitude is renewing. Gratitude is rejuvenating.

1. Peppermint Schnapps--No, not the liquor, the dog. My beagle Pepper is my best buddy. She is so in tune with my emotions, even when it doesn't seem like it. It just manifests itself differently. This morning I was in excruciating pain and my little cuddle buddy was grouchy even though I wasn't. She could sense my pain and acted out of character.

Nap time with The Pep

2. Living in Colorado--I know I've just moved here about a month and a half ago but I love this state! I love the road system and how unbelievably easy it is to understand; I love that it took me 15 minutes tops to get my driver's license (Raleigh it takes at least an hour...); I love the weather; I love the people; I love the vibe. If only it was near the ocean, I'd believe that it was heaven here on Earth.
Garden of the Gods--Colorado Springs, CO

3. Led Zeppelin--For many years I would be hard pressed to pick one band over another as my all-time favorite. I'd heard various Led Zep tunes but nothing really resonated with me at the time even though those songs speak to me now. Maybe it's because I tend to fall in love with songs that are considered "B side" tracks. Whatever the reason was...most likely just the time in my life and circumstances, I consider them to be my favorite band hands down. I still enjoy and adore many other bands in various genres, I'm very eclectic. But their music has bitten me hard and I'm infected. LOL And since I have a known preference for lead guitar players, I'm naturally drawn to the genius that is Jimmy Page. I even have his personal symbol tattooed on my right collar bone.

Jones, Bonham, Page, & Plant

4. A Job--Sure it's not my ultimate fantasy job. But it's something to get me by. And where I'm working is so much nicer than the job I had previously. There is a huge difference between corporate mentality and private mentality. And someday soon I'll have a job that pays me a bit better.

Waitress--good movie

5. Spirituality--I thought that I was spiritual already, but lately my spirituality is growing in leaps and bounds. My mind is more open about various things and I feel a bigger sense of peace. I'm learning to be even more present and enjoy the now. When I forget this, my world seems to speed up and I feel like I have to grasp onto it or else it will slip away. When I remember, time slows down and becomes more enjoyable.

Ooooooohhhhhhmmmmmm

6. Friends--I have some of the best friends in the world. Sure, everyone says that and everyone that does say that is absolutely correct. Picture below is Kelly. She is an awesome friend who is always up for going to concerts and the beach with me. Margie, another best friend, goes with me to the beach or to relax with some hookah, or drinks. She and I even indulge in crab legs, wings, and popcorn at the $2.00 theater on Sunday afternoons (well, we did until I moved out west). Sara, a friend from college is always there to champion me and take my side. We have a fetish for yummy mimosas & Santa Barbara. Caroline is my idol in terms of what I'd like to be physically. She's getting close to 50 but she is gorgeous and takes care of herself. She is always my champion as well and doesn't put up with bullshit.

Kellz & I at the Lincoln Theatre

7. Family--What can I say about my family? I wish we were all a lot tighter but it's a lot less dysfunctional than a lot of families. Even though we aren't all that close, I do know that we care about each other and if anything were to happen to me they'd be there to support me.



8. Legs--I'm so glad that I have legs that are able to carry me where I want to go. They don't always go as fast as I'd like but I'm able to walk, run, go up and down stairs, and dance. My grandfather lost both of his legs to diabetes. I can't imagine my life without them and therefore never want to take them for granted.



9. A Roof--Thanks to connections from long ago, I have a roof over my head. This is such a simple thing and yet there are many people that don't have this basic need. I'm so thankful for this!



10. Wings--Mmmmmmm! One of my favorite meals if done right.

Best wings in the country

Learning to Enjoy the Ride

It's been a long time since I've been on here to blog about something. I've been so busy with my job (which left me exhausted), trying to pay bills, and planning a major move across the country that I haven't really had time to sit down at the computer to blog. The last time I posted a blog was back on July 4th! And even that seemed like just yesterday and here it is the end of September.

I've since moved to Colorado and I absolutely adore it. I did all of my Masters studies online and my university was based in Colorado Springs. Because of various factors, I didn't walk in my Bachelors graduation ceremony. My Masters degree felt like a triumph and therefore I really, really wanted to attend the festivities. The day I flew out to Colorado, I woke up at 4 AM for my flight. I was wearing a jacket because I anticipated being cold inside the airport terminals. When I stepped off the plane in Colorado, it was hot but it felt great! There was no humidity like there is in North Carolina.  I stayed in CO for a week and did all the uber touristy stuff. I fell in love. Completely, head over heels in love. When I went back to Raleigh, I had some big decisions to make. What do I want to do with my life? What do I want to do with my degree? Where do I want to live? It became very clear to me that I wanted to live in Colorado. I immediately began to plan and save my money up to move. I wanted to do it in January but didn't have the funds. I wanted to be there by my birthday (June 30th) but still didn't have enough money. I planned on mid-July but ended up changing the date to the middle of August. I arrived in my new home state on the exact day that I graduated with my Masters degree the year before. Coincidence? I think not...even though I hadn't planned it that way.

So far, I have secured a part time job serving in a country club but I am still looking for that full time job to completely secure me and allow me to move into an apartment of my own. I also plan on starting my own Life Coaching practice on the side. This will eventually become my full time business because helping people achieve their dreams or become their ultimate selves is what makes me happy. And I'm pretty darn good at it. Somehow I just know the answers to things when it's needed or I know where to go for answers.

In the meantime, I've been exploring my spirituality and opening up my mind to different ideas, thoughts, experiences, and deepening my meditation. I feel that I have really come alive and am amazed at the journey that I experience at every step. Sometimes I feel lazy that I don't have a full time job yet...but it isn't from a lack of trying. And sometimes I really want to be in my own apartment because while the people that I'm staying with are beyond gracious for opening up their home to me, including me in events, etc...there is nothing like your own space and being able to decorate that anyway you want. In spite of these feelings, I'm really working on enjoying the ride. If we only focus on the destination, we miss out on major parts of our lives.

Namaste